Me, But No Longer Me

Every three months I either get imaging and see my surgeon or have labs and meet with my oncologist. That means that every three months, I have to revisit the question, if shit goes south this time, am I good with this version of myself? Immediately following treatment, I was riding high in the glow… Continue reading Me, But No Longer Me

Clock Watcher

My follow-up scans are next week. My follow-up scans are next week and I'm nervous. My follow-up scans are next week and I'm scared that they'll show something. My follow-up scans are next week and I'm scared that the cancer is back, and I 've been feeling so good, and now I'll have to go… Continue reading Clock Watcher

Waiting is for…Waiters

As I was laying on the radiation table the other day, "Everybody Have Fun Tonight" cheerfully piping through the ceiling speakers, I considered the fact that I was experiencing what would surely be the most peaceful moment of my day. When the most peaceful moment of your day involves Wang Chung and a medical professional… Continue reading Waiting is for…Waiters

Cancer and the Imposter Syndrome

A friend of mine was recently diagnosed with ovarian cancer. Thankfully, her doctors think that it's stage one and she may not need chemo. She told me that she felt guilty sharing this news with other people who have had worse diagnoses and have had to go through treatment. As someone who is still going… Continue reading Cancer and the Imposter Syndrome